oh just tell me about it. i have to go and type such a long blog entry and then lose the whole thing? well as much as i can remember.

i'm not very good at keeping my own resolutions, eg.about

• losing weight. i cant stop eating. and then i start

• whining like a bitch about how bad life is to me. as above. don't even remind me about

• studying. i'm supposed to be doing that but instead i have to spend all my time blogging and

• doing quiz sprees.well i promised myself and i just spent a really long time doing that. shit.also

• cursing and swearing, espcially when i break any of my resolutions.

It's as much genesis as it is synthesis,
A warp and woof of vowel and consonant,
This mania for leaving letters in blank spaces.

A lust for logos to fill the silent whiteness
Of a framed world of barely coherent fragments --
It's as much genesis as it is synthesis.

Clues reveal and conceal like Gertrude's glib arras.
Th bare impediments to the chasms pregnant
With this mania for leaving letters in blank spaces.

Wordsmiths scrabble puns in search of hypothesis:
They ignore the meaning's echoed undercurrent:
It's as much genesis as it is synthesis.

Endless playing with miniscule runes amasses
Sudden control over the chaos ascendant
In this mania for leaving letters in blank spaces.

Poor souls plagued with word avarice realize this
Wise maxim bears truth for the humbled aspirant:
"It's as much genesis as it is synthesis
This mania for leaving letters in blank spaces."

Which American Idol are you?
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ah the topic of the concurrent lit sem today in which messrs clarisse (risse!), charmaine (char!), bao en (bao!) and kelly (kel!) informed us of their informed expert opinion on, well, Gender Roles And Sexual Conventions In Utopian And Dystopian Fiction. or simply put, sex in books!

haha i bet sarah tan is wondering what the hell was i listening to about sex? but -ahem- that is secondary. i dun even know what that sissy (gay) lit lecturer (Ph.D. -- permanent head damage) was crapping about. couldn't hear. he has to be lyke the worst presenter on EARTH. i think he was talking about pigs and aliens and being useless and something farnie like wort. or worp. or whorp? and sarah went crazy with her "ah just lurve yah clay"s causing cynthia to raise no less than a few eyebrows (not at the same time OBVIOUSLY you stupid *toot*).

yes and THEN came the sex talk. it was really very profound, despite being about cheem stuff like men being convex and women being concave (well.) and i read the giver! *yips* only i shall go see brave new world by alduos huxley and 1984 by george orwell (the man who gave us animal farm and half-killed us, but still.)

after MUCH debate with cynthia about religion and sexuality and feminism and gender roles and guys and girls and birds and bees and adam and eve and god (you can see it WAS much debate), we have come to the -informed- conclusion that... (ellipsis times a million -- the use of pauses to create suspense)

it's all the guys' fault!*points finger menacingly* if it weren't for those *toot* male chauvinist peegs who just kick back and slack off, we girls are the ones doing all the hard work of equalizing the genders! and the problem is the respect, or "mutual consensus", which they DON'T give us! the injustice of it all. (my fave phrase! *yips*)

hm maybe i am crazy about lit-ty people. i either A) totally admire them to the point of slobbering (whoops!) or B)just hate them cuz i feel inferior mah. people who come under A include risse, char, bao, kel, jing. B are pple like hanxin, amanda, shari, suat, wanjie (but i dont really hate her.)yeah so what?

arghh i'm just totally frustrated @ all my proj work. it sux!!!

1. lit essay. status: jing and i are working on it

2. geog traffic congestion with hong jia. status: not decided where/when to meet

3. geog pollution: meet at hanxin's hse, dunno when

4. art collage: read R&J

5. IRS: a whole bunch of stuff to do, and i dun even meet sam :'(

I'm Mysterious Cute!! made by Jen

erm, mysterious cute? i am not Cute, only Cr@zy. i shall make a Cr@zy quiz and an attitude problem quiz and a linkin park quiz. muahahah. and i shall do sarah.t's american idol quiz. wahaha

© What's your Inner Goddess Color?? © Jen

Which are you?
made by Jen

Rose red, royal purple
Vermillion, violet, vandyke brown
Lavender, lilac, lemon yellow, leaf green
Russet brown
wistaria violet
ultramarine light
so too peacock blue
olive green with a sheen
say hello to chrome yellow
don't fret umber red
lest seacrest
reddish brown frowns
a million vermillion
blow shine carmine
think pink

white and black
aren't ever coming back.

'you are the life among the dead'

"Bring Me To Life" by evanescence(feat. Paul McCoy)

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

frozen inside without your touch
without your love darling only you
are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up) bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

i think it's a great song! except that the singer looks bjork-ish. haha. trixie says it isn't rock enough. but it is. so there. nyah nyah.

Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.

What color do you see the world in?
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currently writing a play (or sth like that) abt this topic

You are a freeform writer. Individualistic with a
sense for the different and challenging, Walt
Whitman and his poetry lacking meter and rhyme
is just what the doctor ordered. You're quick
to write something that the rest of the world
doesn't accept as poetry, quick to separate
yourself from the average joe. An author with a
true sense of self, you have confidence in your
abilities and aren't afraid to show it. :) GO
YOU!
yes! e.e.cummings go me jinrou muahaha!

What's YOUR Writing Style?
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Blah. If you're male you only got a tattoo to look
tough. If you are female. You only got it as a
fashion accessory. You make me sick.

How into tattoos are you?
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see i am not paikiah. -huffs at sarah.t-

i think art is really shitty... i used to get c everythime and now i still totally mess up all my artwork.seriously it looks like shit and i wanted to hand it up but yi hui was like NOOO... u have to improve on it. *rollz eyes* i proly won't. art is not your only outlet for creativity you know. poems are much, much more long-lived. right jinrou?

speaking of creativity i got sarah.t to sign up for the SEX talk. bao's sex talk. yeah the ones which say sex and the city all over the school. and the birds and the (drawn) bees are so lame!

last night i was so ji to get home and do homework so i was irritating my whole family when we were coming home from tennis. like saying in deep, evillish orc-like voices, "t minus ten minutes to auto-destruct" every minute and interjecting "auto-destruct is IMMMINENT! muahahaha".and singing the mission imposssible song in robotic voices and going "yeah baby yeah" a la austin powers and going "good morning mr. anderson."

oh now i have an obssession about twins. and i'm doing IRS about cloning. sammy lent me this book which say that IVF babies are mosty twins or multiples and i am so gonna get IVF when i grow up. like also cuz dun need to *you know* with a guy. yeah...

we wuv neo! we wuv NEO! we wuv neo! we wuv NEO!

and he doesn't look like a frog, though jing's frog is cute!

i want all their shades! especially the twins and morpheus... identical twins are so cool, esp when they're cute... like maybe adrian and neil and bobby who has and ugly twin called aaron. but at least he looks good.

matrix is wayy too deep for sarah.t to understand, but too easy for her smarty-pants bro. yay me and wen and hwee are gonna watch reloaded on friday. perhaps perhaps perhaps...

wen e is obsessed with neo. xp

people say that there are lotsa allusions in the matrix ranging from Simpsons (which rox) to the Bible, but i only know those from the Bible. obvious ones:

1.The ONE (neo)~ Jesus Christ, saviour of the world, who died and was resurrected again

2. Trinity~ the Father, Son and Holy Spirit

the twins?! well i suppose i AM that cool. with class, i say

Which flock do you follow?
this quiz was made by alanna

heyy, i'm a hippie @ heart!

PEACE! (miss universe-ish)

Nope, you don't have a drop of english blood in your body. In fact, you're probably American ;) Y'know that little island next to France? Y'know...Europe? No? Ohwell. We love you really - have a cucumber sandwich!

How British are you?
this quiz was made by alanna

haha british whatever i hate simon the COWell.

haha i LURVE bananas. cuz i AM one.

bananas! in pajamas! see how random i am... gobbledegook

Which X2 Character Are You?

and sarah, i so did not cheat. he's the one for me.

and last nite was exactly the same. with a difference...

so i was watching american idol happily and then after that chemistry cuz i thought it was really cool and then the whole feud about not watching tv past 9.30 blew up again.

it was like a little girl tantrum but i was really mad and i started destroying everything in sight like in this really chaotic way. i totally EXPLODED. i was ripping holes in my bed and ripping up every single piece of paper in sight and throwing pillows and blankets around and ripping pillow covers off and locking doors and banging like them and totally screaming a whole ton of swear words like f*** and hell and bloody shit. and my mom was slapping me all the time and i was like get the f*** away from me.

but later, at about 12pm we sort of made up and i was crying very badly like sobbing and saying alot of inaudible stuff like i didn't EVEN get to see clay lose.

i'm so crazy about freedom.

freedom for the oppressed!

diary entry devoted to american idol.

well well who knew it but RUBEN won! roob the big fat velvet teddy bear! not clay, the VOICE! man. it sux

and sarah t is like so damn upset i think she was crying or sth. and cursing fox so bad.

"i hate fox i hate fox!"

and i said hate is not a swear word.

sarah.t: but it is to me.

me: well last night i cursed and swore cuz i wasnt allowed to watch tv. (which is very true)

st: you did? (incredulous)

me: yeah like i bloody well give a damn. go to hell.

st: well i dont even say bloody. so what did your mom do?

me: she was trying to say shaddap but she couldn't. like sh.. shh.. nat

st: this has been the worst day of my life. first got class booking (by squeare-jaw fish-eye)then during english got expository essay *chia was late! muahaha) and now clay has to LOSE.

me: ...

diary of natalie wee jian-ting, aged 14 years 11 days and 1/2 hr. which will change in the very next minute.

so wuliao.

my life is a COMEDY OF ERRORS.

(see i learnt sth fr chia.)

Who Is Your Ideal X-Men 2 Mate? (ladies only)
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as u can tell

diaryland seems cool

so was blogspot but the html was wonky

this seems easier

im a html idiot, not wizard.